You knew you are made to be alone ,
Yet you made me fall in love with you ,
I was happy with my lost path ,
With bits and pieces of love i get in the path ,
Yet not with this heart ache ,
I knew I am not supposed to let go my shield,
Never to fall in love ever in life,
Already have many repentance and regrets , didn't need another one to tag along .
I wish you never flaunted your good side ,
Get me so acquainted with you in my daily life,
Now its difficult for me to even breathe alone , forget about living my life at ease .
I wish you knew I have my own self respect that I throw in garbage everytime I have to follow you while you decide to run away.
You don't even realize how much it hurts to have someone you think is yours and allnat once they make you feel you nothing but a replaceable piece in their life.
You are thrown like a fly from the way,
You are no longer needed ,
When will you be understood , loved , given a piece of assurance.
How easily they can say , who are you.?
You are nobody , you don't have any rights to stop him walk away.
You were just temporary phase , that's only good until everything is okay .
He would be the first person to run the moment things not smooth ,
Isn't that life course , it's bound to happen .
But isn't it unfair to say ,
You the reason he is alone he broke his social life , but didn't you do the same for him.
Didn't you stop talking with everyone cause he didn't like , he didn't want you to share with anyone else , have a shoulder to lean upon, but will not be hesitant to let go that hand he himself firmly hold.
Is vows on paper only that value, is other relationships have no rights , then how can he just break things , say harsh stuffs everytime he's bored, he's hazzle .
He expects you to be robot , just leave him alone for his own sweet time, until he is no longer disturb and trust me there ain't no timeline given.
You act like he's not there in the room, you pick your chores and just ignore the big fat ass , even if you feel the urge to be by him, especially when things not right. Isn't that's what relationship are for, to be in Joy and sorrow, sickness and good days.
Even after knowing everytime you are sick, you are disturb, you are still left alone , you yourself have to pick the pieces and fight your own battle. He don't have empathy over your heart that's filled with hurt so much that it cries out every little thing that's happening around. But surely that gives another reason to get annoyed, for how silly and stupid it sounds to be this weak.
He who promised he would never watch me be sad, never let me cry, he don't even care that I am literally crying my heart out and dammit for whom, that same stupid heartless soul who is the reason of these tears.
Who won't even care to wipe the tears, in return get into conclusion , you are always weeping , you are the reason for his loneliness.
And without yet understanding that he don't need you as whole, just the good happy part. Once that's done he wouldn't hesitate to throw you away, knowing you would still follow like a lost puppy.
You call yourself a monster, but how to forget I have already fallen in love, and the day i hold myself hard , I won't come back and to the fact you won't care and be stubborn enough to loose what's good , what could be for life. Yet you won't think twice to end everything, for you care only and only your ego. Your anger is at top , you care at that moment no one, just suffice your urge to feel superior.
Think once how easy step would it be to just walk and not turn back, you think I can't, u surely can i just value our love more than the rest. Hence keep trying over and over again, even when my mind keep telling not to, to let go , wait and watch, give some time to cool, but again this stupid heart, knows how it is to be alone, to feel lonely, to urge for someone to be by you.
I wish you know what you losing before I lose myself and lose the urge to be the only one to try and keep trying.
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