Redemptive Love

I read somewhere,  "Redemptive love is the redeeming of ourselves through revealing the depths of our love. Perhaps we have merely let time get the better of us, or maybe our journey has just taken us on separate paths. It doesn’t matter. What matters is expressing how we truly feel, and doing so in a way that redeems a connection that was lost."

The true question lies what's the line too draw to give second chance, to know now there is no turning back. Even when it cost hurting the person you love and being cruel and not the best of your version. 

It's better than having this silent understanding where you are unaware what that person will take the step, since once he didn't choose you but chosen himself, and you did nothing but gave that space of absence to make your presence be acknowledged. 

When he comes back opening out with the confusion deep within his mind too, where he declare he haven't chosen you yet but yet in dilemma of what to choose. And may not be sure he have made up any mind. 

You know he might break your heart all over again, now that you have hold back your broken heart and gathered all together and stood all alone all this time. May be always we would never be together, again he would choose someone else and not me. Then what am I to choose, how to fight again with that heart, though broken yet never stopped loving. How could I hold myself when he comes closer towards you. 

And how about the trust issues, how will I be able to trust him blind folded. It's not difficult to get back and act like old days, but with the fear of expiry date and this way of end where he shall just skip the whole chapter of me , one day after he wake up and realize, then what, again the whole scene repeats back. 

May be I shouldn't be with him at all, or may be I wait more till he gets sure with what he truly wants. May be it's just the temporary phase and once he gets busy he shall repeat it all over again. It's just the loneliness he want old days to not end, I just can't guess or understand.

For I know one thing, if I ask him up front, my decision shall never be to be with him. Cause he shall always choose him and not me. And play the victim card, how weak he is unlike me and he can't come out of the emotional web which he ain't ready ever. 

Is it then a redemptive love or yet time to see where it takes and just go slower and let us know, if it's also emotional connection and not just at the edge of current emotions.