Knowing you would be free, and we could have just met and mend things.
At least for the present, and may not the way I wish it should, may be some perks of patching but at what cost.
When I was that easily replacable and it didn't even took much efforts , why mend anything.
Once broken shall never mend the scars, it shall never be new.
Always stay back reminding it was once broken and can be easily turned into tiny pieces all over again. This time more easily than earlier time.
Weeks and months we spent together matching our calender against your schedule.
But who knew one had to watch the lil detailings when time changed and you had nothing but excuses.
That same person who couldn't spare a day without talking with me, sharing thoughts, discomfort, dishearten talks.
Could easily walk away whole week without asking my state of mind.
Well now am used to the excuse you have kept for future, I could have also asked, I could have had more than the revert on those greetings wishes.
That would have cost on my dignity and It matters more than worldy gifts.
If someone wants to be with you, they just be, they would not have second thoughts on it.
Life ain't ever fairy tales, you won't always have good days, there would be dark clouds in every relationships, doesnt mean one needs to end and run away blaming the destiny.
Our fate is on our own hands, we can make however we want to turn our page, don't waste your energy in finding another excuse.
May be you need, for I surely am over those lil lies am been hearing from weeks and months. Trying to shut my mind, hoping things shall turn to the sweeter side sooner.
How can I make this heart stop beating for you, let the mind relax for a change. Don't wanna walk at the same path where I know I would be left all alone again, maybe this time I shall heal my pain more quicker than the last time.
Sharing your work loads, atleast boasting whenever you felt low and had to run on your rat race you thought meant everything. May you win the race for you have given up on us, when you could have made other choices. Never mind, never gonna question you on your decision.
Just let you stay back alone when you hated the most, may shall let you know, how hard it was to keep myself available when you wanted someone to talk to, someone to hold and cuddle, someone to hug and shed the load. Not everytime everyone have time in the world, you go extra mile , when you find it worthwhile.
Ever since you left without a closure, I have nothing but the silence and lot to share feels. Earlier my love notes explained my love for you, now it shall remind you, for you had someone who truly wanted nothing but your love and time. You can hoard for lifetime may be one day you turn to those hidden letters, may the words realize my love was pure and you are now left with nothing but my silence.
We may cross the path ahead, we have too many friends not letting us part away so easily. May be like you had always planned to part away to another city , may be that's why you always gave me hints.
No wonder love is known to be foolish choice, you turn deaf, blind and mute, you show the real color when the love fades away. Like I promised in the start, I shall wait till I hope there is even a slightest chance for things to change. But when I walk ahead you may repent and hope but I shall not come back to you.
No one can stop me to choose me and not the wait, the patience and hurt behind every minute watching the phone without any calls, message or standing by the window hoping you would rush back the same place we had our very last conversation. Where you still choose to stay silent and let me come to my conclusion, let me shatter for all you cared was you were left with no burdens.
Didn't I accepted you with your burdens, if not monetarily but stood by you everytime you needed someone to hear you out. Hear all your anxiety , hold you to step back and walk towards the goal you think it is. May be I was always the shadow and had to fade in the limelight. May be we meet on an another dark cloudy nights, may you never face , but when you shall stand there all alone, see someone silently behind you hoping for your good.
May you realize you lost the diamond while searching for the stones. Yet will hope you fetch someone whom you might love, then you might know the fear of losing someone and the urge to hold on to that person and everh efforts and madness that comes when you know you going to lose that one person you wanna spend life with.
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