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Even keeping it so personal and away from the world.
Do you even know everyone have been taking updates from me for you .
People literally calling me asking about your progress .

See it's really true we were always bad in hiding from all.
It's seen to all honestly . May be that's the reason I didn't wish to see your family .
I didn't wish to be the reason for their sadness and regret.

Your brother's would be really eager to meet me, wanting to know what's so about her that's made you so crazy.
You actually kept calling me baba and babu in front of them.

Good you have atleast your one brother who understands you and don't judge.
Honestly I was nervous to come in front of anyone after what you performed that stunt at hospital.

But I was not worried for me, honestly i didn't have any answer or justification for them .
What to answer to them. What happened . How it all started . Do you have any answer.

If there were less of your family I would have rather stayed there by you whole time .
But I know my limits. Am still a friend of yours in their eyes.
Happy for the fact they taking good care of yours . That's all I wanted.

I have kept my presence with you, you will be able to get my essence around you .
It was kiddish but that sketch was all I  could bring inside from the eye of security .

I asked you today what day was it, but we were interrupted with that nurse.
It's 4th week, remember we were to celebrate this day as first month to walk together.

If it's 3 years am sure it's ok we can wait more longer. Anyways whom do we need to show, we do have all the time of our life . And Don't worry you won't go so soon, my setting with God is strong.

And have you forgotten it's me who would go first. So stop doing such stunts I won't get scared for you to go away. You have tried your level to do that earlier . So stop trying harder .

All my time from Saturday I was trying to keep myself at ease as I didn't wish to get weak in front of you . I have to be your pillor right these moments when you really want me around .

Luckily you made it easy, you kept that stupidity all around you not letting me know your pain your suffering. I am sure we could have spoke and shared but then I didn't want anyone of us to be weak. Not atleast when it's needed most.

How could you actually ask, will I still look at you after this new face look of yours . I anyways never judged you by your looks. I never even seen you any other way, you called yourself bald, cartoon, old man, and god knows what all.

And I used to just smile and react to all of your kiddoness. Wasn't it always that I let you do everything you always wished for. Without using our words let the time take the route.

What have you made me, am here all alone with our memories with our songs just counting days for everything to come back to track. Though I realize it will take good time to get old days back. But everything's fine unless it has you for better or worst.