Wrong once again

I was wrong the whole time,
was wrong to do anything for anyone.
To make someone feel special,
to make believe to be different from others.

I was wrong the whole time,
to trust someone even after knowing the fate,
even after been felt the cheat and lies.

Still i shared, i did everything i could,
even after knowing its not right.
But never heard my conscious and made it quiet,

Now wonder for what,
wonder what i got after losing so much.

Tired of seeing so many fake faces,
who speaks so nice in front but be worst behind you.
Why have people to be this way,
please speak real dont have to be fake with me.

Its always better to know the real harsh truth,
than to know from someone the sweet lies.

I am weak to even end out this whole chapter,
but now i am done with everything.
No more fuss and no more confusion.
I don't want anything anymore,
no more this worldly fantasies nor their attraction.

I never understood through words,
but like its said, if not the words through the actions.
I have realize that i am simply a fool,
selfish about myself and now i am left with nothing but myself.

All the words that i shared to others,
was with loads of fear of being used again.
Still again i trusted and now i feel to be fool,
feel to be cheated once again.

I swear myself, i have quit everything today,
i am done with everything i started.
Would ask for whatever punishment is left to get,
and be silent forever.

I would no longer be myself, the same very bubbly me,
no more of joy or laughter, just my work and me.
Had changed earlier and another change this time.
But this time it would be forever,
ever and ever, hammered in my head.
No more heart and its hidden feelings,
just do whats given and get moved on silently.