Again shocking news to hear,
i guess these days everytime i get to hear something unheard,
something shocking, something hard to accept...
This time new hearings stated that i was the whole time responsible for everything that happened all these time.
It was my decision and i was the first to get forward and get everything into out of place.
Strange but till date i was saving irrespective i was being again called liar,
yet i saved everytime that was possible.
Now i am really broken again,
another hurt and another ditch, by now i must accept i am worth nothing better.
I was weeping the whole time, praying for someone's life,
and cursing myself to put everyone's life on stake.
But now everyone in other side and me all alone,
all putting their hands up, all changing their verdicts.
But one thing that i am still 1% stable is one person whose still there,
whose trying everything thats possible to save the situation.
To make me out of this problem and not get much affected by the consequences i deserve.
But what i did, i hurt that same person always, lied him, cheated him, made his life into disaster,
threw everyone against him, made others get negative for him.
Knowingly unknowingly, its me and my stupidity that ruined everything more worstly.
Well today, after a long thought all the day along, came to a final decision,
would apologize to everyone, be calm, hear everything been said,
wont react, would accept everything ahead.
And shut myself completely, wont mingle ahead, wont trust others,
wont show my character to anyone, my heart,my thoughts, all within me.
Like i used to keep saying,
i am afraid of everything to be lost.
Well this time i was responsible to lose everything i already had, while running for one thing.
Realized now, after getting various extreme treatments from everyone,
still there are few more people to give their verdict, would hear them peacefully.
Hopefully, praying that the situation ends here only,
or else i am afraid i would ruin everything,
would be left nothing to live, hard but would really be left with nothing with me to live.
Still wont blame anyone for anything, but better move away from everyone.
Like i was been responsible for the current situation, i would atleast make sure no one would be blamed for anything that happens to me.
Won't but that burden for sure.
But that's latter part, for now, all that is with me is sit and watch, what's coming ahead.
i guess these days everytime i get to hear something unheard,
something shocking, something hard to accept...
This time new hearings stated that i was the whole time responsible for everything that happened all these time.
It was my decision and i was the first to get forward and get everything into out of place.
Strange but till date i was saving irrespective i was being again called liar,
yet i saved everytime that was possible.
Now i am really broken again,
another hurt and another ditch, by now i must accept i am worth nothing better.
I was weeping the whole time, praying for someone's life,
and cursing myself to put everyone's life on stake.
But now everyone in other side and me all alone,
all putting their hands up, all changing their verdicts.
But one thing that i am still 1% stable is one person whose still there,
whose trying everything thats possible to save the situation.
To make me out of this problem and not get much affected by the consequences i deserve.
But what i did, i hurt that same person always, lied him, cheated him, made his life into disaster,
threw everyone against him, made others get negative for him.
Knowingly unknowingly, its me and my stupidity that ruined everything more worstly.
Well today, after a long thought all the day along, came to a final decision,
would apologize to everyone, be calm, hear everything been said,
wont react, would accept everything ahead.
And shut myself completely, wont mingle ahead, wont trust others,
wont show my character to anyone, my heart,my thoughts, all within me.
Like i used to keep saying,
i am afraid of everything to be lost.
Well this time i was responsible to lose everything i already had, while running for one thing.
Realized now, after getting various extreme treatments from everyone,
still there are few more people to give their verdict, would hear them peacefully.
Hopefully, praying that the situation ends here only,
or else i am afraid i would ruin everything,
would be left nothing to live, hard but would really be left with nothing with me to live.
Still wont blame anyone for anything, but better move away from everyone.
Like i was been responsible for the current situation, i would atleast make sure no one would be blamed for anything that happens to me.
Won't but that burden for sure.
But that's latter part, for now, all that is with me is sit and watch, what's coming ahead.
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