Waiting for right time..

Life is passing by with tears and sorrows,

with regrets and repent, with guilt and hatred.

Have no idea where it would land, or how long would it go.

But one thing is sure, its changed me to the core,

after all the consequences, am with utmost belief, that no more desires.

No wishes nor expectations...

Just with a wish to get things in order, if not complete the pending work and move back.

Someday i used to love myself to the core,

couldn't remain from capturing myself in images and videos.

Now even if someone forces i be away from all of them,

no more wish to check myself in the mirrors.

Everytime i try to get positive and search some ray out of darkness,

some worst happens and try me to push more backward then earlier.

Make me realize its not over, there are more to weep and repent.

First time when i am no longer feared of losing anything,

may be cause i am left with nothing but real guilt,

i have nothing more to lose, cause i have lost myself in this race.

Had played some game where i won and lost,

and i have no happiness or sorrow for the same.

I have some memories, some nice and some bad,

although the bad ones give me terror,

but then the good ones drop me with tears.

A deep desire to get them all back in life,

to cherish them once again, to give a try to make things in order.

BUT NOW NOTHING BUT TO WAIT,

WAIT FOR THE RIGHT TIME, FOR THE TIME TO SETTLE THINGS UNSOLVED..