Feels negative..

I am a body with empty soul,
Have mouth but no words to speak,
Have ears, but don't feel to hear,
Get scared when touched, but accept the flow of violence.
Acts like somewhere, i have accepted this as my own fate.
Don't wanna react to the abuse, feels like my own choice,
Not wanting to stop the thrashing, accepted to be worthy for it.

Don't feel like enjoying the life, nor the fun,
things are same still different.
May be this time, i am no more the same person.
Everyday, everytime makes me feel guilty,
Was someday the reason of happiness and now of sorrows.

Memories still there to cherish,
but feel like hiding behind the bars.
Bringing ahead huge pillars of boundaries,
that would tie me from the world.

Don't want anything, nor the pleasure or the leisure.
Don't want to be the center of attraction.
Just want to finish what i started and move ahead.
Can't hold on this place anymore.

All the success and its ladder,
seems to be no longer fascinating and craving.
Just wanna move away from everything and everyone,
feel doubtful when someone stare at me,
wonder if they knew the list of my mistakes.

I  feel lost somewhere,
feel sometime, but wanna close myself.
Feels all negativity in me.