Thinking way too much..

Came to know about your presence,
strange but felt the same day you are near.
But then moved away my thoughts,
cause i know we no longer stringed together.

Have accepted that we no longer together,
we cant even speak two words to each other.
Remember how you used to get better with my sigh,
and today left you all alone when you needed the most.

But even not my mistake,
there were so many people like soldiers.
Wanting me to be away from you,
like i used to ask you to be away from me for your good.
I keep hearing them all over again, but from all.

There were times when we used to hymn together,
those beautiful words expressing ourselves.
Today left with no music,
if there is just with some sad ones making me feel someone's demise.

Keep wondering how would i react if i see you in front.
Hard but this time am firmed, would ignore your presence,
would show no feelings through my eyes,
eitherways there is no more words left in my mouth.

Have been working for making myself hard,
no more opening out for anyone.
And would be only successful if i do them with you,
Thats when i am completely changed the way am trying to myself.

I had mentioned i would turn away myself into worst,
good somewhere i am reaching, somewhere away from here.
Don't know how much its good and bad,
but didnt think earlier then why now.
Lets wait and watch whats next in my plate of life.