Feel Inhuman

Life brings you with laughter’s and tears all together in this phase of life, no matter how cunning you may be but life knows the game much better than you can ever think of. When you think you have won the most of them, there would be a time when you would know you have won nothing but you’re over confidence. You would be left with nothing but silence and loneliness.

When you scarify everything for one thing and when that thing turns to be whole lie, the whole time its hard then to accept everything from then till the end. When you got so many memories in those little moments, it’s very hard to turn those lovely memories into a bad unacceptable one.

When you have been dreaming those moments again and being happy to get with those moments in your life, and suddenly within a flash of light you realize those memories were whole lie, they were with some bad motto for a cheat its more worst to believe it.

Its worst not cause of memories, but cause of accepting them and making your mind accept the other side of the story. Still one’s mind is so restless, want to know the hidden truth, trying to remove out some new facts, somewhere to make it get the answer it’s looking forward. Not wanting to accept that you were been played with the feelings all once again, those moments were nothing but another cheat another lie.

Why can’t then this mind accept it and feed it forever, why do it ask or hear from this weak heart? Why can’t it take a stand forever, why do it still shed tears thinking about those good moments? Even after knowing that now there is no life of those dreams to live, still why those dreams are hiding in our mind.

We never realize to what extent we move to cherish lil happiness in our life, to feel good to be alive, to hear that you mean to someone. But what when those believes just turns into ashes when you come to know their real motto, their lies, very hard to trust ourselves forget about them. Where it’s hard to believe that can we be such a fool to never see their fake face, their lies, or were we so busy with cherishing those dreams into reality.

You might have done somewhat like this to someone’s life and move ahead wondering what’s a big thing that happened, but when the same feeling you get to feel, its next to disaster, hard to accept hard to reject. We feel then the real pain what we might have felt others too someday, but realize it better when it comes to you.

Its then hard to stand straight and see yourself in front of mirror where you are bound to answer your own self, for your deeds and that’s when you realize whatever you sinned you need to face them all by yourself with time in this small life itself.

Sometimes sorry of being human, sorry to be so selfish and greedy, sorry to be feeling-less at times, sorry for getting that guts of hurting others for your happiness, sorry for not realizing the importance of those few people who changed your life for better and you in return, rather than thanking for life hurt them for life. I am sorry for being human or can say sorry for being in- human.