As you sow so shall you reap

I cheated on someone who love me more than his life,
I cheated on someone who trust me more than he does himself,
I cheated on someone who counts me in his family.
I cheated on someone who have been in all of my troubles.

And when i had to give reason for why i did so,
All that i had to mention was that,
I cheated on him for someone cause i felt he don't love me the way i deserve,
I cheated on him for someone cause i felt he doubts on me,
I cheated on him for someone cause i felt alone when i am with him, as i am the only one with him.
I cheated on him for someone cause i was not fedup to be part of all of his troubles.

Strange fact, that its the same very points that made him special and ordinary.

I cheated for someone who gave me loads of time,
I cheated for someone who hear me and my thoughts,
I cheated for someone who cared for me,
I cheated for someone who made me feel special.

And now i come to know that the person whom i cheated on is still standing behind me,
with a fear that i don't hurt myself in guilt.
Even being in pain and hurt, hold me tight cause i  should not get more in pain.
Still fight with his people when they say i am wrong and need to be left alone.

His heart get torn into pieces hearing the lies from me,
yet wanna hear the detail to help me come out of my troubles.
He don't sleep at night in peace yet hug me tight and pamper me making me go in sleep peacefully.

Strange fact, that i still don't respect to all the deeds he do for me.

I cheated him for someone and went out of my limitations, broke all of my boundaries,
and now i hear, that i am been cheated by him, for he just wanted someone for pleasure.
Shared me with someone in my unconscious state for his benefit.
Broke my trust and belief for him, tore me apart.

Strange fact, i got what i did for someone and now i feel the pain what i made it feel for someone who didn't do any harm for someone.
Who expected only to get someone's love and care, someone's attention and affection.
And i feel disaster to cheat such a person, whom even after being together for ages, i didn't understood him, his clean heart.

Very true saying, "As you sow so shall you reap".
And now i can feel this great saying very clearly and deeply.