Heart's apart...

I am totally broken very badly,

that i am afraid to ever get myself back.

I have never been so quiet with a darkness on my face along with tears filled on my glowing eyes.

Why have i been in this state?? I was never to face this feelings..

With all the practical thoughts and plans that i carried with me of all my life.

Then from where did someone knocked the door of my life..

Wanting to enter to the forbidden door,

How much efforts had you taken but today this door is in your name..

And all after this, i happen to make a choice, to leave my life all by myself.

If i had to leave you and throw you out of my life.

I would have done at the time i had realized that you are not my right man.

Even after all the distress i tried to adjust and compromise with myself.

Making myself feel that you can be my only future..

I do realize that you are undergoing from trials and troubles,

But how can you ask me to move out of your life..

How can you try to hurt me so badly,

that i literally fall over my knees.. for my happiness and my peace..

I still remember that you had once told that i am the only reason for your life..

Then why were you say that you wanna end up the life.. things turned better..

  But now that i must move out of your life..

Why am i no more the reason for your breath.. If i am how can i myself push you out of my life..

How can you be so insane?? that you cant even see the despair am going through..

I do know what you are going through, that was the only reason to forgive your all hurts..

There was a time when you were falling for my smile and those sparkling eyes..

But i suppose there is nothing left expect a swollen eye and a dull face..whose almost forgotten to truly laugh..

I don't know what to say, all i know is this feeling that i am going through is not to face..

Even when i have some good time with my friends, i get quiet all of a sudden..

Can't come out of the trials we are facing through..

Can't move out of the pain going in my heart..

And i suppose i can never move out of this ever in my life..