Unleash Myself

Unleash myself..
Wasn't that something you wanted me to do from myself..
I remember you saying, you need to unlearn and find the old me..
Someone you found inside me long time back before I even showed a small sign of my old me.
I have been so closed to the world, surely not wanting anyone to enter.
I accepted the reality, you show your true personality they will use it against you.  Your ways of expressing your feelings will be used against you.
Your emotions would be nothing more than your weakness.
Your level of trust will be shattered when everytime you open to someone they take you for a toss.
Strange I was never this hard , never so practical, always used my heart and not my mind.
I always stopped anyone trying to know me from the very first start.
Pushing so hard by hurting them all in advance .
Isn't that simple than giving them the power to hurt you one more time .

I was just fine for the new person I became,
Why then , why had you to knock this locked doors?
When I stopped sharing, why did you shared with me so many dark secrets of yours .
When I turned practical, why did you showed the dream sequence.
Why Now, when I have accepted the harsh fact.
How do I unleash myself, when I don't even remember who I was and who I have become.