I am done..

I am no more interested in my past,

View bloghave made up my mind,

tried to do everything worst to make me reach some conclusion.

But it simply pushed me into more terrible.

I am done, done from the interrogations,

done with the weird eyes over me, showing i am wrong..

Excluding me in every social gatherings, making me realize am no more worth..

Comparing me with the worst titles we can ever think of.

Blaming on for everything that happened..

I am done, done from expecting things to be normal,

ever thinking i am going to get the lost moments back.

This is when i realized the importance of blood relations,

no matter how wrong you been, they would still stand by you.

Atleast wouldnt leave you, thats for sure.

I am done, done with the guilt am carrying with me,

the shame that have become the burden over my shoulder.

The realization of me being the culprit for all cause.

The fact that, i am put blame for every start of this unexpected situation.

I am done, done walking on road all alone,

walking with the fear of meeting with those old peoples,

wondering the reactions i would get, and how i would react after.

Trying hard to be feelingless, the time when i meet with that one person,

who was responsible the same as me,

But today all the blames are only and only on me.

If throwing away your life is all enough,

Then i would have chosen that path so early, but didnt.

But then atleast i wouldnt have blamed anyone,

put anyone into situation of blame game.

Even today i am taking all blame on me,

every little things happened, am willingly taking over me.

Promised to get completely excluded by those people whom i caused harm.

There was a time when my name used to bring joy and happiness,

but now left with curse, sadness and pain.

I have realized i have fooled with relations,

took chance and kept so many relations on hold.

Like i remember words, the importance of relation would be when you are all alone,

when you need someone to be there, thats when your deed shows colors.

Anyways, its all late..

I have lost it now.. and hard to earn back..

But then all that is in my hand yet,

is not to cause more harm from my side..

And trying to get out of the sight and memories, completely.

Cause i am really done..