Losing my identity being with you..

Everyone wish to get into this beautiful relation of love, where two body gets into one soul.. one beautiful relation of love.
Where both your happiness and sadness you are part of both the time phase.
Where you forget about your sufferings when you are with that single person..
That give you a strange energy to fight back all the troubles that you come forth..
Even i am wish for the same, to get that one person..
whom i can share all my feelings, my sadness and joy..
to whom i can be myself.. and not that of the world..
But i guess my wish would be always a wish..
I took your problems as mine, and stood by you..without hoping for something in return.
But i hoped a small thing.. Not some luxuries life.. but a happy feeling while being with you..
A different feeling that would make you different and special from others..
I guess you took me wrong, i dont wish for comfort just for my pleasure..
I never asked you to work hard and achieve for my sake..
Why would i expect something in return, when all the returns would be received by you and only you..
Would i get something if you get a good and stable job,
would i get something if you get a good life..
i still cant get what would i get, out of all the tears i drop for you..

Why do i get this thought that whether i am doing this right..
When you are in relation you get together and be one,
but that doesnt mean you lose your identity,
i guess you form another identity with his name attached with yours.
But here i gotta think whether you are safe, you had your food, you are happy, yours and yours only.

I have my tastes and preferences, and its indeed hard to come out of the same sooner.
But i guess only giving worldy things doesnt complete your responsibilty..
Where have i asked great things from you..
Then why do you and your act bring me tears everytime..
Dont you really see my pain and sufferings..
Not that i am loving to be with these agony.

Leaving back my work and my life i walk with you,
just for a hand to hold me while walking together..
Who asked you to push me ahead..
Who expected you to be my father,
I just want you.. Cant you get it..

I am just sick of everything.
Really..  I am tired of everything.
I am just feeling that i am losing myself somewhere.. trying to give you an identity..
Sorry if it hurts, but i am just feeling this way..

Independency always comes with responsibility..

Independence.. Being independent..
Seems to be such a wonderful feeling, where you are without any boundaries drawn by someone. Where you are the king of your life and every decision is onto you. I guess every other person desired to be independent.

Let it be a teen who want to be independent from his parents, or a working man who wants to independent from the rules and regulation from his boss and seniors. Or a passionate person who wants to follow his own dreams, but finds walls every step.

Well even i desired to be independent, where I would be recognized and my name is been known. I never appreciated when i was known by my father, nor would like if i am known ahead due to my life partner. Whatever i take decision always must be purely my thoughts and ideas. No one should keep nagging and hold me tight.
Never realized but i used to run away always whenever someone tried to put inside their palm, i used to feel i am been tied inside all those emotional bond and would have to be now this way always. And thus kept running here and there, as much far as possible.

Today, i atleast got freedom from being a family, today i stay all alone far away from my family and all my loved ones, but you know what, i am again stuck into other connections, thats the persons whom i am living with. Not that i am without independency, i am having more than i have ever expected.
But today's date i have something that i am carrying with me, thats more heavy than that bond that i kept running, i.e responsibility. Responsibility not only of myself, but my whole surrounding, responsibility of my room mates, my new good friends.

That's when i realized that although we keep running away from being dependent on others, that's always better as you are without those tension that a person have when he or she is independent, where that person keep taking all headache over to himself, and how ever he do well, but when he do something wrong, he is responsible and needs to take all credit, whether he likes it or not.

Hence i came to know, that independency always comes along with equal or more responsibility.

MY ANGEL MY LOVE

 Some people believe, there is a one
The one who points, your way to the sun.
A person they believe, makes them complete
... The one who will support, when facing defeat

'You are my angel', my one and only
My forever love, so we'll never be lonely.
You've brought to my life, all your love and care
It made me see, when I realized how rare . .
It is to meet your angel, or their lifetime one
Through you and my children, whose life has begun.

What you've done, you've illuminated my soul
It's you and your love, that has made me whole.
The feel of your love, your soft touch and caress
We're tight so close, your heart beats in my chest.

All that we have, always felt missing before
Though I love you today, tomorrow it will be more.
Our love is life, we are the strongest tree
Which will always grow forever, like you and me.

You have opened my heart and held it so dear
You are my angel and will always keep it near.
You have seen my ups and cared when I was low.
'You are my angel', I just need you to know.

You entered my life, through a ray of sun above
And when we leave, we will leave together in love
My love for you, has become my reason to be
I hope one day you'll find, your angel in me.

Lots of love baby

Why is Humanity Disappearing..?

Why is people all around filled with hatred and revenge..
Why are they with a envy an jealous..
Why are the cases of injustice increasing day by day..

There are no longer any pure relation left,
where today a child is himself killing his own parents..
where siblings kill each other- for some amount of materialistic care.

How could they forget that there were no money when they were nothing,
all were in the same ground, filled with soil and mud.
Soon as you grew older those mud turned into dirt.

Where is humanity disappearing from this world.
where are all love and affection fading.
why aren't anyone happy and content with the things one have.
where has the greed come all of a sudden.

Another phase of life...

Life is so much interesting... i would have never realized it.. unless i took this decision of moving out of my comfort zone.. and shifting to a new city.. where no one knew me who would pamper me with care.. new areas that i would have never ever seen... with new people along with their difficulties..

Sometimes life gives us so many chances to explore this beautiful world but we ourselves are busy in fighting with our small little problems.. Today i have nothing permanent, nor this few people whom i speak. nor the room where i am staying.. nor the area that i am walking through..

But all that i know is, this time i have to face each and everything all by myself... It seems to be hard when we imagine it..  but then the other part of the coin is.. we have nothing to lose.. nor identity.. nor society.. Its like we have got another life.. where we can put forth any image we wish to show to people.. which we might have not been able to show the other part of our life..

Another chance to protect ourselves with the same problems that we had faced earlier.. and avoid the same mistakes that might have ruined our life.. Really no one can ever think what turn their life might take.. and where can you land the very next moment...

For the fact, today i have not much things.. nor protection from family.. nor my old friends.. but the best part is.. i ain't much bothered about what i have lost.. but i am excited only with a thought of whats the next page of my book gonna show me..

I feel.. i just keep turning all the pages of my life.. as quickly as possible.. and enjoy all that i can.. without losing a chance.. But then that's not how life is.. it has its own plan that we need to work with.. and we have to work and walk with the same pace.. what the time shows us..

All that we have to do is.. Wait and Watch...

Earlier i used to get scared of the next moment.. with a fear of losing something.. never knew what was that thing that i was afraid.. but indeed the fear was always within me.. But that's truly not now.. i know i ain't having anything really to lose..

That's true.. life is really interesting... its on us.. how we see it..

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Whose Mr. Perfect...

Searching for Mr perfect will cause you nothing but heartaches. It is an endeavour in futility because no such creature exists. Why do you seek perfection when you are not perfect yourself? Why do you place such an insurmountable obstacle infront of you? Why have you made your life and relationships difficult because of such an irrational demand? Unless God sends down an angel to marry you, which is an impossibility, you have to choose a human being, like the rest of us.

 Any woman you see enjoying a great relationship worked on that relationship. There are no short cuts.Perfectionism may work well in a novel, movie or television show, but in real life it will frustrate you, and lead you to massive pain. Are you compatible with this guy? Can you live with him in peace without going crazy? If your answer is yes, then you are in a very good place. You can deal with the ‘minor’ details later. However, if your answer is no or if you had rather dip your hand in a pot of boiling oil than spend time with this guy, I will suggest you look for another guy.

 Not having lots of money is not a good reason to give up a great relationship. A guy may have lots of money but be abusive and insensitive to your feelings.If this guy, who doesn’t have lots of money, makes you feel on top of the world emotionally, then you should think about how to work out the financial angle in your relationship. Think and pray through. But don’t throw it away. Not just yet.

Is he too short, too fat, too tall, too smart, too dark, too light, too hairy, too muscular, too skinny, bald? etc.These are things you can work around. If you don’t want to get married to a short man who will do anything to make you happy, would you rather he was tall and mean to you? A man’s height or physique will not make you happy. Stop delaying your marital destiny by desiring the wrong things.

 The media sells us the picture of the perfect man with well formed, a perfect body, a perfect job, an IQ of 180, perfect teeth, a nice apartment, a great car,etc. If you want one of those men, you will have to find them in that magazine and no where else. The fact is that if you want a good man, you must be willing to work on the relationship. You should be vary suspicious of any man who looks too perfect. In fact, I will advise that you step back and watch him closely.