Thank You...

I feel grateful today,
and wanna thank everyone,
who came in my life, who is with me still and promise to be with me for the entire life,
and specially to those who left me,
and couldn't hold me for the rest of the journey..

Wanna emphasis specially on those people,
for they have made me to learn many things,
making me realize who emotional i am,
and its stupid to be an emotional fool..

Wanna thank them, to make me stronger than before them,
for giving me memories, no matter it turned good or bad,
but still both the way gave me something to remember..

Wanna thank them, for i have now some experience,
if not what i want, but atleast what i dont want,
more firm in rejecting for something that i don't want to the core..
which i couldnt have done without them..

Though i am no longer the way they had seen me
when they entered in my life,
but atleast wont be repeating the same ones again..
wont then get a chance to curse to someone,
for it would be me whose the most stupid person to repeat the same mistake..

Thank them, for somewhere the new me,
is only cause of them.. because of their decisions,
that somewhere knowingly and unknowingly affected me..
Anyways wont praise them too much,
but wont even curse them..

Somewhere had heard,
its you whose boiling your blood by thinking over the moments,
that makes you feel sad and low..
They wont even realize it, but its you whose losing those time in something,
that wont even change even a bit, then why..
When there is nothing to earn out of it..

Thanks a ton,
and more thankful, you stepped out of my life,
for now the door is opened for someone who deserves much better than you,
Now its my chance to move out of the walls that i made early,
as there is more of than weeping over sad past..
As you wont get anything but hurt..

So why worry,
be thankful and cherish the rest moment,
there are more in life than sitting in some corner and break your head,
take away your peace and weeping for something thats not even in present..
So why not you fuck off..
and let me leave my life.. on my terms..
You couldn't make space in my life so why struggle to get survived in my mind..
You not even worst a bit of it..

Beautiful Life...

Life is being so beautiful these days,
making me feel more young,
not that my hairs turned white, but feels back to sweet sixteen..
Where there is nothing more important than the word love,
for whole world runs around for love..
You feel to be the best person in the world,
the most special for someone..

No matter how you were, behave with people,
you want to get lil better everytime for that person..
When your smile makes someone day,
your tears can take away lil piece of heart..

Suddenly your likes and dislikes get mix matched,
and there are many new things you wanna try,
carrying with a smile on your face,
for it means for that someone..

No matter how was your past,
you start hoping for a beautiful future,
where you spend entire day in the presence of love and care..
Though there are many things that binds your entire life,
but then when you have love.. you feel everything so complete..

Life gives you sourness and sweetness,
but most important, some sweet memories that you carry with you
your entire life.. and though the person may not be there by you,
but those memories can be cherished forever,
making you smile and shed tear for that one moment..

Confused me..

Is my heart so weak, that it can never take the weight of any blame,
that guilt for which i am ready to repair everything..
When i have given the choice of my decision..
still pressed out with the pressure of losing something precious..
This is the time when i felt everything would get normal,
would get new and the time of my weeping would be pushed far away..

Even i urge nothing but a smile that last for long,
a heart that have no fear..
Not even a doubt of losing anything in life..
Just a urge of being myself..
No matter how much ever i do mistake,
i still get forgiven.. and get started all over back..

For my decision is the first priority,
my wishes are something to be fulfilled..
My tears are that precious that its measured against the thunders and the storm,
for smile against the billion dollar..

Heart is always sentimental, soft and gets emotional..
So need to get with some ending,
cant just let it keep wandering in some corner,
waiting and wanting for something..

Why why why why??

Why cant life be so easy than with so many twist and turns,
why cant everything be so simple??

All the efforts taken for getting part of another persons life,
why is it then, it cant last for ever??

The happiness we incur to get into a relation,
why does it bring with more sorrow when we are no longer into it??

The simple rule of life is, be with something that brings happiness,
but how can we move so easily from those things that brought someday happiness,
only with the reason that its no longer bringing out any bloom..

Why is it so difficult to open your palm and let things go,
when those were the things that meant badly to you..
When you couldn't be without the person even a single day,
Life bring forth with a moment when its needed to be away from him..
No matter it kills you from within little by little,
just like a slow poison..

When there were no secrets hidden from him,
every bits and pieces of thoughts in mind were been shared out,
how to keep that wandering mind out of this terror..

When things turned dark and came forth the decision to make a final call,
mind thought as practical as it should, whats the best suited for me..
But then how to make peace with this heart,
who still cry for those old us,
for those memories hidden into the heart,
every moment spend together..
Why does it tear the heart into pieces..
Why is it so difficult to make up the mind and heart..
Why why why why why why?????????????

Why does it keep bringing out tears,
which have no more meaning but only feelings,
some unsaid words, unsaid urges..
Hoping to get better, hoping to feel better..
Still wanting something from life..
Something that would stop this wandering of mind..

Someone to walk in Life..

Life with a right partner turns your life to right direction..
One may excel great in life and have achieved heights of success,
but he would always be incomplete without a person to share..
A person with whom he can share his happy and sad moments of life..
He who wont be standing alone in the phases of success and failures,
who would know the real meaning of winning success..

Its not difficult to get a person who would knock your door,
but then meeting with right person is the most important part..
Where the person would walk with you in the path of life,
not walk ahead or behind you, but holding hand to hand..

Its been said that one must be with someone who brings the best of you..
Who makes you happy more than focusing on the sadness..
 That person who would do anything for not letting that smile remain on your face..
Who don't get bothered with the worldly beauty..
But would find something different in you and something beautiful in you..
For him, you are the most unique and special person he have ever met..
And just don't make efforts till you fall for him,
but try every effort to make you fall in love with him everyday..

Where the world name you bad and never understand you,
this person shut the ears..even at the loudest voices around him..
He who lives in present and not in past,
who accept that everyone have their own past,
no matter who worst the past have been,
but that have tuned the person in whatever she is now in present..

Respect is the only word that is high priority in this relation,
where nothing is precious than the self respect of each other..
Caring about each others feelings and not just one sided,
To step to any extent to make the front person not feel left alone..
For understanding even with the silence of lips,
reading the speaking deep quiet eyes.. the unheard movements of the body..
Let it be the long deep sigh of relief or the heavy gulp of the throat..
trying to understand the heaps of thoughts pouring out like a waterfall..
Being at one place still roaming the whole world in a fraction of seconds..
Not knowing what to do, where to go, still an urge of doing something..

Is it too much to expect something from someone??
Its better we expect less from others, but then how to not expect at all..
Isn't it difficult to know that you do need something in return..
Not gold or silver, but little care and affection in return,
is it so hard to get that much??

You would meet with so many people in life,
where one person is good with nature, other would make you laugh,
where you get attracted by his eyes or his smile..
A moment where you want the person fit to walk with you,
the walk together with pride..

Love is blind and you don't get bothered if he is not the most beautiful or handsome of all,
but then why the moment come where your relation is judged with the matching of you,
where your both physical beauty is looked forward,
thats where your color, weight or the face cut is judged..
Then why the love isn't blind anymore..
It hurts someone and pricks lil by lil with time..
And then hard to sustain the relation with the same pride..

Its rightly said, its very hard to meet right person,
You have to be lucky to get with that person in your life who would bring the best moments together,
who wont take you for granted as time passes by..
Who would still bring the best of you every moment ahead in life..
would still hold your hands no matter what happens,
with every hard phases of life, with all ups and downs..
You can live your life truly when you chose right person to be with you...

Blame yourself and not others..

Why do people blame on the other person,
to spoil your life and peace..
When the only person who is responsible for the mess..
is only and only you..
It was your choice to let that person get into your life..
when you were been so generous to allow anyone enter..
why then cry when they left it??

There is only one thing that affect us,
that is the choice that we take..
That tends us to fall into trouble or save us..
If we were more cautious all in the beginning..
it wouldn't have reached so deep,
where you finding hard to stand again..

You gave them the power of hurting you,
you trusted that person, and shared everything you had..
So why are you to blame that person when you were the one who did,
you should have been more safe in the beginning.

What is the use of cursing your fortune?
When you yourself turned it according to your comfort.
Everyone takes steps that makes them happy,
when that step of yours was for happiness,
why now weep when it gave you unspoken hurt and sadness..

It is good that you face such situations,
not cause it was for good, wont be so generous,
but then atleast it is good, if you realize soon after that incident,
and you are just a fool if you trust again and repeat same thing again,
even knowing that had brought you pain and troubles earlier.

Time would indeed cure the pain,
no matter how deep it is.. but why put over to time,
why don't you take the stand, if the way you took early,
and walk ahead of time, and save for the best.

Everytime you would be tempted for taking some stupid step,
and just for experiencing it, taking some step,
would be the most foolish thing you would do.
Cause if someone likes you for you did something stupid,
that person is stupid and dumb.

Cause you are precious and unique in your own way,
perhaps you are more stupid and dumb,
for you didnt realize it and expected the person to know your importance..
 

I am afraid..

I am afraid..
not of the world.. or the people..
nor with their lies and back stab..
nor with the success and its failures..
but am afraid..

I am afraid..
not of the stiff competition,
nor with their ways to compete..
nor with the politics..
nor with their approach to drop you down..
but am afraid..

I am afraid..
not to take responsibilities..
nor about keeping promises..
nor to stand with family when they need..
but am afraid..

I am afraid..
not to fall in love..
nor to keep up with the relation..
nor to let it face the sad ending..
not to lead to an end..
but am afraid..

I am afraid..
and am afraid of me..
I, me and myself..
i am afraid..for trusting myself..
and not building back the courage to trust anyone..
to start back from the scratch..

i am afraid.. for letting them in my life..
for watching again.. them walking against you..
showing their back towards us..

I am afraid.. of sharing my love with someone..
for watching all efforts going in vain..
for watching it ends so worst..

I am afraid.. of trusting myself..
whether i would be there by my family..
when so many times i turned back my face..
dont have trust on myself..
can i be part of them.. in their hard times..

I am not afraid..of the world..
i am afraid of me.. letting lost in the whole crowd..
am afraid i would change all over again,
to be accepted by others..

I know there would be people who would want bad for you..
who would play all sort of politics..
but i am afraid of myself..
to chose wrong person and leaving the good ones..

I am afraid,
and i am afraid of me..
To start all fresh over and over again..