Everything happens for a reasons

Anything and everything happens for a reason,
when you meet with some situation,
it is not accident never was it..
It was to happen only the time was undecided..

When you meet a person, there is always a reason behind it,
its better not to find in the beginning cause that would complicate your life.
Let life search by itself and at the right time,
cause when it has to happen it happens.

When things going great we never think or be grateful,
but where things turns against us, life turns upside down,
thats when we have list of things to grumble..
We are left nothing without arguing for whats lost,
but when we happen to sit quietly later in silence,
it actually happened for a right cause.

The cause for any change is having their own explanation,
when you are rigid, time changes, situation changes or people changes.
When it has to happen, the most beautiful and perfect relations also bring with clashes,
there are times when you lose some dear ones in life,
and remain in that hole of loneliness wondering for the answers.

It is more easier to say, leave it and accept the present,
but this acceptance would be learned by you with time,
and may be later in future you would be glad that 'it happened',
although was not how we thought or asked for,
nor went it the way it should have.

But truly everything happens and happens only for a reason,
Life is indeed set with various surprises, some ups and downs,
you have to wait patiently and watch,
and accept what time is bringing forth to you.

Timepass..

Love has no language, another movie that took me to another world..
world of memories, some sour and some sweet old ones,
where i can hear the laughters and the tears..

With the time i accepted it like my fate,
but there is something that is within thats memories,
each and every moment spend till date in life,
thats something that no one can ever take away, not even me..

Love or timepass, the whole movie shaped up when the time came of confront..
where at the climax the couple had to be confronted in front of the elders,
the girls family couldnt take with the thought of the wrong choice that their daughter chosen,
but there is something that i liked, she didnt rejected for the fact,
even in silence she accepted with the fact that those small time moments were not timepass,
but with dedication and loads of love and care..

Generally these days people have turned coward,
when it came to the bad moments, all that the person thinks is to run away or give up,
and the trendy fashion in town, get yourself closer to the death,
if not, scare for running away from all somewhere unknown.

One thing that i liked about the movie was that it showed out the reality,
there were no happy endings, not that i hate watching the happy ends..
But life is no fairy tales, here whenever someone have taken a stand,
he or she have met with obstacles, starting from their own dear ones.

And finally, to be continued.. Like that of OM SHANTI OM,
"Picture abhi baki hai mere dost...."
Everyone whom you meet, may have been accidentally,
but although with time you move ahead and away,
but life is destined and acts like a circle,
no matter how much time you take,
you would have to cross by the same path..

Only the situation would be how you take it that time,
Would it be then molded or left broken,
its all on you..

First love....

I happened to watch this movie called as first love, a little thing called as love..
Amazing movie, its all about school love, where its filled with innocence,
your whole affords to get the persons attention,
to hear even a word from him, to meet the eyes together,

The best day of your life, when you realize that the person knows your name,
thats all that is enough to make your day..
The best feeling when accidentally get his touch, making you reach on the ninth cloud..

The mornings starting by with the plans to pass by him,
wanting him to realize that you are there near by..
Yet get nervous when he comes closer to you for a casual reason,
The night ends with the thoughts about him, and the urge of wanting him so badly
and gathering all the courage to start back new day with the same feeling..

You happen to be so stupid and idiot at times,
which you might realize cause everything is simply alright if its for him..
Passing by the areas where you know he walk by,
trying to like the things he does and like,
changing yourself, your taste, your areas of interest just for making everything perfect.
Its such a wonderful feeling..

Learn to cook, get into same classes, indulging into sports, trying to be clever,
anything and everything that have been impossible till date,
seem nothing those days, and you really dont mind going endless for him..
An unspoken glow over your face, the lovely thoughts over your unstoppable  head,
suddenly you become multitasking by working with the task assigned and with some secret task of your own that you happen to plan for him..

The efforts of liking his likes even after hating it to the core,
making that weird faces of unacceptable, yet not giving up, thats something that is unexplainable..
the long sigh of breath, the wide open eyes, the fast beating heart.. everything with the same focus of wanting him badly..

Indeed first love is beautiful and cant be explained,
may be that moment we never realize unless we happen to grow older and get a flash back some point of life, making you fall with laughter with all the things you actually did for him..
Let it be some stupidity some mistakes, everything in just one flash..
Makes it more real if the person comes back in front of you..
It brings out your whole life in one flash of second..

First love, is more special for its filled with innocence,
where you have nothing to lose, cause you have already loosen over him.
And this is why you dont mind going anywhere, crossing any boundaries for that one person.

Me and only me..

After a long time got a minute for myself,
where i can be free with my thoughts and with my words,
where i am myself..
where i need not have to make attempts to make others like..
where i need not have to work hard for anything,
i need not have to look good or be conscious..
Its me and only me..


Love this moment when i am only me,
and all that is in my head is to please myself,
no one else to think for and please for..
Me and only me..

Living a life..

A ray of light, a ray of hope
this is why even in the darkness i walk to the goal.
You matter how blurred is your road,
All that you need to think about is the next step and your dedication to reach the end.

Life brings you with so many moments,
some good where some bad,
but one thing that we need to accept, that no matter however the past went,
your future lies on you and only you.

If you sit in a corner weeping all day long for the lost,
you may or may not be in fault,
now what can we do, its past and no use to live in the past forever.

It would be like closing the door, cause you are afraid,
afraid for another fall another drop.
But don't you think thats the whole point of living a life.

What fun would it have been,
if you already knew whats coming next.
If you never made mistake, how would you know whats right and wrong.

Its very simple to say and more hard to implement,
but again thats the whole point of living life.
You can see people and their mistakes,
you may have learned and gulped the book which spoke on mistakes in life.
But until and unless you put your hands in fire and get burnedm
how would you realize whats it feels like.

Indeed you fall badly and never feel like getting up,
quitting is what is in your head,
but alright whose in rush, take your time and rest.
But then get up and stand back in the pace,
run in the race to reach your goal.
Thats when the story comes to an end.

You are not alone...

After a long time came a time of silence, Silence where I can hear the wind blowing through me, making me feel its touch with a belief of not being alone for the moment.

Where I am in the shelter of vast dark sky and with the tiny dots of stars twinkling above me. Far in the other corner is the moon making me realize, that even in the dark there would be one sign of brightness, letting us move out of our difficult times.

However the night is longer, it ends one point of time, with a ray of light of morning sunshine. Let the winter be very strong, holding you in its coldness, making you paralyze and completely weak.

But like the shoulder that holds you and share its warmth, there is one person from heaven who’s looking our difficulties,

He knows what you been and what you facing, he may not bring you with an arm but would make you stronger against the coldness to fight your own battle.

When there comes a time when you are left with no one beside you, and when you have with several questions and a doubt on yourself, simply trust that one person, he won’t leave you alone.

No matter how cruel you were been with your deeds and behavioral with others, but when you realize and repent in front of him, he hears you and surely protect you from all dangers.

We may think no one hearing our prayers our tears, but no matter how much time he takes, he would respond, but when the right time comes.

Not that before it, he wont hear you and your prayers, but he would try to see how strong can you be and would still hold his faith and walk ahead in the path of difficulties.

We cry for being hurt or left by people, but he have plans for all of us and for every situation you faced or facing there is surely some lesson that you are bound to learn.

Just you have to believe in him and no matter how bad the situation you are to hold yourself till the end, who knows that would be your last moment of difficulties.

Hidden wishes..

There are so many desires of a human being,
hard to ever quench them, when one is over there stands few others in line.
Sometimes wished i never had desired anything,
nothing would have mattered to me then.
Never asked and expected for something better than present,
would have never clashed against my present.

Sometime wished we were smart to remember stuffs,
but other moment regret not to forget some moments of life.
Those moments that hurt you and take away lil life everytime you remember,
where you are left with regret and sufferings.

Wished i had not met some people,
although those gave me some great happy moments that wouldn't have otherwise cherished,
but when those moments are temporary it hurts a lil more,
and take away some part of you, which is not returnable.

Who knew that your innocence would be badly punished,
and something that would never be forgiven.
And you are left alone with a curse of leaving your life all alone.
Where you are doing nothing but cursing your decision forever.

Another chance..another life..

When i sit all alone, there are times that make me to think,
what if it didnt start this way, where would have we been.
 May be i would have never seen the hidden faces of people that i can, now.
May be i would have not been all alone here.

When i think of the time where we didnt had to lie or hide,
where we were allowed to cherish for happiness,
no rules and regulations and no such boundaries pushing two lifes apart.
Indeed life would have been so much better.

When the moment comes as such,
thats when the meaning of life would change,
didnt had to be so choosy with people and scared for trusting.

Where is no one to name you or judge,
no one to segregate you with your race or religion.
You need not have to be embarrassed being a free thinker.
You can live the life what and how you wish to do.

But then life a dream that break away when the night gets away,
with the daylight comes the realization,
we are not in that world, but have nothing but to accept the reality.
And with the acceptance this is no more a dream.
May be in another world, another time, another chance. 

My sided thoughts

I wanted this blog to be read and heard,
and may be this is the very reason why i have mentioned all the happenings in my life, from the day of the occurings.
May be the only way where i can speak out my side thoughts,
the hidden feelings of mine which is unheard and unspoken.

I have not been cheating everyone, agreed that i lied and hid to few people and it is the biggest ever mistake of my life.
But for whom i lied i was honest and fair, i had showed the very face of mine.
The bad side of me and also had been very clear about the mindset of life.

Although i was cheated, when i came to know that the person just judged me,
and on top cant ever believe for the fact, he used me for his own benefits.
The worst ever happening in my life is to accept that, after trusting this one person,
he gave me to another person for his benefits, and that person speak out on public to enjoy me.

Wow, such a cheat, but then no one would ever understand what i am facing and feeling,
cause i was the one who went ahead and crossed the boundaries made by me.

Another worst feeling when people say it was me who is responsible,
and i was the only person who brought about fire and ruined many people's life.
I influenced the person to break the rules,
but how much i remember, i was not the one, it was he who made me to break my rules,
who encouraged me to do something unfair and not proper to the world.

Then why have i to be the only one to be responsible,
why have me to get isolated from the normal life and people involved.
Strange that the other person is back to his life and all the same people is normal with him.

It was his another great step that turned my life upside down,
and then i was again answerable for everything and was forced to take away the responsibility for everything that happened.
Why?? Did i asked him to take such steps?

Anyways that's gone, it has wiped away with time,
but the scar wont ever meet,
earlier i was lil rigid and closed, now atleast i have become harsh to the core.
And forget about entertaining people, i am least interested in indulging in social life.

No one would understand what i am feeling right now,
when people see me with that bad and grudge eye.
But even worst when one person whom i cheated and lied,
is still with me and stand by me, although face the worst condition than me.
Kills me lil more inside with the fact, i ruined his normal life for my enjoyment,
and even after all that i have done, he didn't utter a word.

He can't be same anymore, nor can he trust me or accept me,
but am atleast happy for the fact, when and where he wants to remove his frustration cause of me or related to me.
I am there, although it hurts me badly and sometime uncontrollable,
but may be that's something i can do to repent for what i did to him.
And with a hope that one fine day everyone be back in my life.

Till then here goes the days, the moments, without any cherish or urge.
 With the burden of guilt and loneliness.
 May be thats what i am worthy of.

Wish to be bad..

I am no more the person i was earlier,
no more, all cause of the circumstances that came by me.
I can't blame anyone cause i myself invited,
even after knowing that i would land out into trouble.

I have been giving people free advice of not trusting people,
and damn i myself did the same foolishness.
At present all that i am left out is to get peace from my past.
But when you see the things, you really can't move over.
The same people, same places, old memories left behind in those places.

The worst feeling when the people whom you spend most of the time
are no longer wanting to see your face, have curse for you when remembered,
hurting when you were with them some point of time, they loved you so much,
shared their time and moments with you and now nothing there but loneliness.

I could easily move away from all the aspects,
but then i am not that selfish thats why still here, bearing all the insult and loneliness.
I wished i was in real as worst as people think i am.
I am trying to be that hard hearted and the person who plays with peoples feeling like explained.

Clueless but not unsure

The counting days are just passing by,
waiting for the left over time to pass by lil it does.
For the time of closing away this phase of life and moving ahead all over again,
not letting me get reminded by the past,
always all my well wishers have thought good about me,
hoping that they be there forever.

Without seeing any way of light,
stepping ahead over my life to whatever phase coming ahead.
with a promise to never look behind,
no more hints, no more hopes.

No matter life leads me to the same old path,
wont have a word uttered,
have no more courage of being lost over and over again.
 Atleast not this time.
indeed clueless about life, but not unsure about dragging again into the pit of darkness.

Rigid forever..

Life got lil better,
not that things changed or reverted,
its just getting in the presence of your family,
getting their love and affection, no matter how you are in trouble there is someone who is there for you,
and they give everything and anything you ask for.
That indeed made some great difference.

The worst feelings build within me,
that gradually reduced with time and attention.
Yet the repent of ruining everything is there filled and wont ever go away.
Now after returning back and joining my daily course of life.
When the decision of changing the sad subject into something powerful and positive,
there came another bumper,
some secret hints pulling me behind once again.

Not wanting anymore trauma nor happiness,
just need some peace and silence..
So living again with a humble request and hope,
that no more desires and urge of materialistic happiness.

Its hard to imagine how people move forward in getting something,
and they sacrifice everything and anything they have.
I would have to end this writing if there would be any glitch coming forward.
Cause i write only for speaking and sharing with someone,
so that ahead in life when i need to turn back,
i remember the things happened in my life
and also the mistakes of my life.
And this decision of mine would be there forever,
cause no more use of heart but only of mind..