Miss something..

 

They say i have changed alot,

no more laughter, unwanted talks, yelling, beatings..

They say i have grown matured,

no more kiddo stuffs, actions without thoughts..

They say i have been smart,

with politics, mind game, heart catching..

They say i was once a child,

filled with innocence and truth..

But feel empty..

Feel disheartened.. feel heaviness within me..

I may have done my acts without thinking much,

cant use mind games, gotta think for that,

nor politics, i never understood anything from the beginning..

But in the end i have hurt everyone..

I may be no more worth for the respect, love and care i received,

but then can't help, i am responsible for the same..

I never wanted to end so many things,

but then have to face for what i chosen..

I still remember, standing for what is needed,

for what is right..

I used to stand firmly, stood till the time it was possible..

But you know what, can't really stand if you are already wrong..

Learned one thing from my loved one,

She explained me that, if you have to hid something from someone,

its not right, its not something you must go ahead..

If you cant stand firm and proudly confess to all,

you are not chosen rightly, give a second thought..

Another thing that have got stuck in my head,

that one can make its own character,

no one can teach, or make yours, nor can immitate..

It is what others think about you,

but what you carried after all the experiences in life.

I wish i get back, the same old child,

no worries about the world,

dont need to be mature, or thoughtful..

There are people to think for you,

correct your mistakes.

I really miss those moments from my life..

I miss them all..