Pierced heart

You are very bad and selfish person.
As you were riding your life at such speed you forgot you not alone.
You never bothered to think how hard is it to see you there in that condition .
Even worse to feel helpless and unaware what to do.
Always a thought to try everything to make things right .

Wishing to have power to turn back the time and not let this incident occur .
Like pillor I would stand and cover you from all the trials and troubles.  Where all this while it was you who covered me from my troubles.
It was my wish to go first no matter it's on that stupid bed you lying without any senses.

Do you realise how it feels to stand quietly. Especially when doctor and nurses ask to label our relation .
What to say what am I to you. Who are you to me. I was surely broken deep within.

Felt knife pierced inside when you didn't even responded when I stood by you . You didn't heard your name.  You didn't even felt anything when I hold you hands .

You didn't have sense to even realize there were so many of us who really cared for you .

Wanted to slap you for not taking care of yourself.  It was mere while back we were talking when everything was alright. Till I speak with you and know your condition it's gonna be tough night .

You couldn't stand back a day without meeting now what ?
Didn't you get how M I gonna feel.

Feel like punching and slapping for yoyr behaviour . That stupid hospital also didn't let me be for more than it's visiting hour as they say m not your family. Really .??

There were so many of them wanting to see you and all that I did was stood by you seeing your face so broken. Scratches all the places I could see. Ears bleeding, blood stains felt through your noes , worst was your lips. How could I tell how it felt so bad.

You didn't even feel a bit when that nurse came by you and injected calling you your name . I was hoping for once you open your eyes and see . Know that am around you and everything will be alright . You not alone .

Your brother didn't like me waking you. I was there by you holding your cold fingers. Hoping you hold me back firmly.

I wished to be by you whole time till you get discharged . Heard your family was traveling to come to you . Somewhere I was happy that you won't be alone . But also feared to come closer to you when they around . Knowing the fact I was just a friend someone hospital won't encourage. 11amto 1pm and 6 to 8pm. That's the time when I can get lil chance to peep even keeping in mind if someone wants to get their chance to meet you .

When all that while you prayed for my happiness my wishes my concern.  You went off the track that even god forgot for a while.

You know I brought along something.  Got a handkerchief with my smell of veronica and me. You remember the white flower had a bud along, it bloomed . I hid away from doctor and the checking guys.  But you were so in deep sleep . I realised I troubled you all these weeks in my troubles.  Didn't cared of your health your mind set. Sorry for not understanding.

Get well soon my love. Can't see you in pain. Wasn't fair when you gave all the prayers to me. You truly deserve better. Be get well soon.