Confused me..

Is my heart so weak, that it can never take the weight of any blame,
that guilt for which i am ready to repair everything..
When i have given the choice of my decision..
still pressed out with the pressure of losing something precious..
This is the time when i felt everything would get normal,
would get new and the time of my weeping would be pushed far away..

Even i urge nothing but a smile that last for long,
a heart that have no fear..
Not even a doubt of losing anything in life..
Just a urge of being myself..
No matter how much ever i do mistake,
i still get forgiven.. and get started all over back..

For my decision is the first priority,
my wishes are something to be fulfilled..
My tears are that precious that its measured against the thunders and the storm,
for smile against the billion dollar..

Heart is always sentimental, soft and gets emotional..
So need to get with some ending,
cant just let it keep wandering in some corner,
waiting and wanting for something..