I am afraid..

I am afraid..
not of the world.. or the people..
nor with their lies and back stab..
nor with the success and its failures..
but am afraid..

I am afraid..
not of the stiff competition,
nor with their ways to compete..
nor with the politics..
nor with their approach to drop you down..
but am afraid..

I am afraid..
not to take responsibilities..
nor about keeping promises..
nor to stand with family when they need..
but am afraid..

I am afraid..
not to fall in love..
nor to keep up with the relation..
nor to let it face the sad ending..
not to lead to an end..
but am afraid..

I am afraid..
and am afraid of me..
I, me and myself..
i am afraid..for trusting myself..
and not building back the courage to trust anyone..
to start back from the scratch..

i am afraid.. for letting them in my life..
for watching again.. them walking against you..
showing their back towards us..

I am afraid.. of sharing my love with someone..
for watching all efforts going in vain..
for watching it ends so worst..

I am afraid.. of trusting myself..
whether i would be there by my family..
when so many times i turned back my face..
dont have trust on myself..
can i be part of them.. in their hard times..

I am not afraid..of the world..
i am afraid of me.. letting lost in the whole crowd..
am afraid i would change all over again,
to be accepted by others..

I know there would be people who would want bad for you..
who would play all sort of politics..
but i am afraid of myself..
to chose wrong person and leaving the good ones..

I am afraid,
and i am afraid of me..
To start all fresh over and over again..