Trust!! Just Like a piece of glass..

Why can't anyone trust on the words,
why can't they really buy that i am with my promise..
When they asked me to realize the mess i created,
i understood to the depth and accepted to be the reason for all.
But then its hard to make them trust you again,
when you know you had thrown away their trust into ground.

Now realize the saying that,
although it takes centuries to gain trust,
once its broken it takes a lifetime to gain it back.
Now i am living with the truth that i have to be with this life,
Have to accept that being a worst person that anyon e would wish in their life,
i would have to be all alone throughout my life.

Its indeed a piece of glass,
which once broken cannot be completely brought back,
It would always have the marks in it,
the scar that would always remind you all your life.

This is why i have myself decided,
that i would never want to involve in anyone's life ever again,
this way i wont be the bad person to destroy their peace.
I would always wish in the corner to clean the mess,
But giving up my own self doesnt really seem to be the option like suggested.
Never understood whats the use of throwing away this life,
although some mistakes are worth for everything,
But ending up life would resolve nothing but the deep deep anger of all those been hurt.

Its strange that people who still wish to get a word with me,
approach to me without letting others no,
Everytime something sad happens, just get one wish
a wish to get back the old times,
a wish to change the complete mess,
a wish to repair the relation,
and a wish to get forgiveness.

Wish to make all of them a dream,
the next morning you wake up and get it back to normal,
and then you get the consequences and never do it again.
But its not a fairy tale so have to face the harsh fact,
and to know whats been lost and never to gain back.
And have to live the life this way, all alone!