Still Keep Waiting,,

I looked around,
You're nowhere to be found.
I gazed again,

but you're appearance still nowhere around.
I said your name, hoping you'd answer my call,
The silence responded..

I kept saying it louder and louder,'till my voice go hoarse,
But the quiescent still agonically answers me.
Do you know that I'll keep on waiting?
..Do you know that I'll keep on searching?
Do you know..that I'll keep on beseeching, calling your name?
..Do you know that this suffocation cannot be hold, my dear?

My chest went pounding,
My mind went on, praying.
My soul went drying,
Thirst of the need of thy appearance.
Living in this emptied world of nothingness simply is just worthless...
Worthless without you, worthless without your smile.
Simply still empty, but it's not dried up, this life of mine.
With you, that is..
Waiting..

No matter how long it'll take,
No matter how hopeless it felt,
I'll just keep on waiting..until you come back.
Impossible, sure it does...
Unbelieveable, I felt I wanna crack...
Undurable, I wished to die...
But I'll still keep on waiting, waiting for you to come back.
Was it betrayal, was it just me?
Was it falsehood you made, was it empty hope you gave?
Was it my fault for trusting, was it your fault to give in?
Whose was it, what was it..?
It all come back, fled to me like a soaring wave..
Days passed, I'm still here..
Time keep moving, days won't go back..
All the regrets I've been spending on, I'll keep on waiting.
All the thoughts of assuring myself sink to nothing,
All negative possibilities conquer my dreams..my wish, my sanctuary..

Sometimes I wonder..
If God does exist, did He heard me..?
Did He heard my prayer, my wish and only hope...?
Would He proceed to give me hope, or would He let me be in despair, misery..?
Doubt filled my mind, rushing in... ...But I'll still keep on waiting for you to come back~